Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Power of repetition

Power of repetition



This friend of mine used to say to me…. Everyday for thirteen years say to me… in the sweetest manner say to me....
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.
no one will ever love you as much as I do.


This friend of mine loves me no more, now I know.. everyday I feel it more and I know.. after thirteen years it is no more.. and I know:
no one will ever love me.
no one will ever love me.

..

..


Posted by SaudiEve at 1:12 AM

37 Comments

  1. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 2:10 AM, June 28, 2006  
    I love the poetic lilt to your posts. You have a soft ear for langauage and life. Where is the hard edge I wonder of Saudi women willing to rebel/protest/fight against the middle-ages type religion that surrounds you daily and oppresses you and your sisters? You travel in the west and yet ignor the ugly reality of your homeland. Are you on drugs that allow you to talk about love when you live amid brutal and senseless ideology/religion that daily mistreats women?
  2. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 10:29 AM, June 28, 2006  
    If so, what are you doing in America ? Why did you leave that "paradise" of yours and came to be among whores? To watch those shameless whores wearing T-shirts and knee-length skirts (HARAM!!!HARAM!!!) until your little mind not used to obscenities such is female arm or knee - explodes to pieces (little ones, of course). I bet your right hand (or perhaps you jerk of with both hands?)has became much stronger since you came to America.
  3. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 10:31 AM, June 28, 2006  
    ... and by the way, mr gq is as anonymous as "anonymous".
  4. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 10:56 AM, June 28, 2006  
    ... still, damage caused by many years of sexual repression cannot be healed so easily. As we can see, it transforms into hatred and agression towards "whores" (which are probably no one else but girls who kiss and caress their boyfriends in public, not giving a shit what kind of hormonal reaction it may cause in some poor chap who was destined to spend his teenage in some God forsaken... oops, sory... in the Kingdom of Halal and morality.
  5. Blogger wastedchix posted at 12:23 PM, June 28, 2006  
    relax girl .. 4get about the stupid \"friend\" ..it\'s immpossible NOT to b loved by some one! u just need to take a closer look :\")
    (We luv u :\"P)
    BTW ..i think they blocked our Blog! don\'t u think it\'s waAaAaay too soon?
  6. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 12:42 PM, June 28, 2006  
    Eve,

    I really do admire your courage and willingness to standup for what you believe is right. I have read many books regarding life in Saudi for females. Comming from a country where there was similar, not as strict, oppression till recently, I feel for you and your fellow Saudi nationals.
    I hope and pray that you will soon be allowed to choose freely the direction in which you ,or anyone from Saudi for that matter, want to lead your life.

    Keep up the good work and do not let anyone allow you to stray from the path you believe is the correct one.

    Regards
  7. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 10:07 PM, June 28, 2006  
    well, well, well. Now i get it saudi eve. So u r a divorcee and most likely a psycho eh? u deserve my sympathy and that of all ur admirers. Fire island off long island should do the trick for u. i will mention u to david lettermen so he could come up with ten most likely things u should engage in while in new york. i have mentioned one before ie swimming across from eastmoriches to fire island.
    once more saudi life is ok, take it or leave it.
    am not amusede by ur antics.
    nasara, nigeria
  8. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 12:27 AM, June 29, 2006  
    To limit love, is not love. Love is endless unbounded, what one would do for another is limited, in our world. The expression love does not need to be said, it can be felt every day in our lives. To give unconditionally, is to want the best for the other no matter, how undesirable it is to oneself. To give freely, to extend love is a choice, it is ""I love you"", not more or less then anything, the love exists or doesn’t. No one should ever despair love can be found, and exists in everything, and can be found by everyone.

    -----------------------------------

    I do not want to hear love,

    I want to feel it, sense it, see it,

    I want to hear it not in words but from the tone and softness.

    To know it, with out question, and hesitation,
    from across a room, from across a world.

    A touch. A look, love created and shown in tenderness and caring.

    I do not seek love in words, show it to me….....

    aiw
  9. Blogger SunShine posted at 1:42 AM, June 29, 2006  
    Touched...
  10. Blogger HA! Entertainment posted at 1:22 PM, June 29, 2006  
    I heaerd u are very famous saudieve. No wonder. You're good. You gotta write book like Anne Frank kinda stuf.
    I believe it will be wuzzhome! :D
  11. Blogger Erica posted at 4:08 PM, June 29, 2006  
    You use your power as a woman well. Men who yell the loudest are the men who fear women most. I support your campaign for freedom of speech, and have put a link to your blog on my own blog to help spread the word. From one woman to another, you're a true jewel.
  12. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 6:21 PM, June 30, 2006  
    ...sorry, spelling mistake - they exchange them for sheeps, not for ships.
  13. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 8:40 PM, June 30, 2006  
    Natalia

    :) :)

    they are of small minds and thoughts. need to place themselves about others... as I wrote what happened to understanding and compassion for one another..

    nice to hear your thoughts

    there are gentlemen form and in the lands of whores, maybe not many, but there are a few..

    :)

    aiw
  14. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 12:53 AM, July 01, 2006  
    Is it not so that all sunshine makes a desert? Is it not so that Love given but never taken and/or returned will one day wither away? If you did not requite this Love Eve there is no reason to believe it would endure. Like aplant hidden in the shade it passed away for want of that light. In no way does that mean you are never to be loved. The greatest love is to love someone and be loved in return. Give yourself a chance, allow yourself to love when you find the right man, and accept the love in return. I refuse to accept this giving up on love nonsense.

    I do so wish the rest of you would learn to discuss and be accepting of one another. None of the proposed religions to which you are discussing from condone your behaviours. -Chicago, IL
  15. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 7:54 AM, July 01, 2006  
    Evie,

    I do think you posts are lovely- I question any friend who says No one will ever love you as much I do- it's seems almost threatening, and definitely manipulative.

    Wishing you much love-
  16. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 11:21 PM, July 01, 2006  
    Ya Omar,

    yala, yala...

    Natalia
  17. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 1:25 AM, July 02, 2006  
    Oh sorry, I assumed you understood Arabic... never mind, I just wanted to encourage you in your emigration plans. Far better idea then giving them "the message on Islam" (something you are by no means qualified to do)... But cleaning the house is not a bad idea either, I've heard that physical activities help in reducing the level of sexual tension... which may result in redusing the hatred, agression and opsesion by so-called "whores".

    Few years ago a bunch of guys like you decided to give them "a lesson on Islam"... and yeah, as you say, they seemed intriguated...they were jumping from burning buildings, mourning their loved ones... so I think it's better that you hurry up with your emigration plans... before your hatred toward "whores" and "kaffiras" result in some similar action.
    It's not that they don't deserve a lesson (they definitively do), but the lesson on minding their own business, not the lesson on Islam. A lesson on not using imaginaries such as "weapons of mass destruction" and "ethnic cleansing" as a cover for their imperialistic plans...
    Anyway, debate inapropriate for such underdeveloped brains...

    P.S.
    I am tired too, it's midnight in Europe... I'm going to join my sleeping boyfriend...

    N.
  18. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 6:27 AM, July 02, 2006  
    Eve, you will be much loved.
  19. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 11:32 PM, July 02, 2006  
    These are the people you are trying to make Muslims be like. The one girl was only 7 years old. You are indeed quite foolish.

    FROM CNN NEWSWIRE
    ----------------------------------
    BEIJI, Iraq - Investigators think American soldiers spent nearly a week plotting an attack in which they raped an Iraqi woman, then killed her and her family in an insurgent-ridden area south of Baghdad, a U.S. military official said yesterday.

    The official, speaking on condition of anonymity because the investigation is ongoing, said the attack appeared "totally premeditated" and that the soldiers apparently "studied" the family for about a week before carrying out the attack.

    According to the official, the Sunni Arab family had just moved into a new home in the religiously mixed area about 20 miles south of Baghdad.

    One resident of the village of Mahmoudiyah al-Kasr al-Awsat told The Washington Post yesterday that the young woman had complained of harassment by U.S. soldiers each time she passed through an American checkpoint. The resident, Omar Janabi, said in an interview that the woman's family had taken the precaution of sending her to spend nights with a neighboring family. But the soldiers attacked the family's house during the daytime, when everyone was at home, said Janabi.

    The military announced Friday that authorities were investigating allegations of a rape and subsequent killings by soldiers of the 502nd Infantry Regiment, part of the 4th Infantry Division, near the city of Mahmoudiyah. The 502nd is part of the 101st Airborne Division based at Fort Campbell, Ky.

    The anonymous official said yesterday that an initial investigation indicated the rape and killings occurred March 12. Officials had said Friday that they learned of the allegations only late last month, after insurgents captured, tortured and killed two soldiers of the same regiment. (They were beheaded)

    The military has given few details about the case, the latest in a series of probes that began with the U.S. disclosure in March that it was investigating alleged killings of 24 civilians by Marines in the far western town of Haditha.

    Yesterday, Janabi said the victims were Kassim Hamza Rasheed Janabi, 36, a guard at a government-owned food warehouse; Fakhriya Taha Muhasen, 44, his wife; and their two daughters, 7-year-old Hadeel and 15-year-old Abeer.

    Omar Janabi said that on March 11, with American and Iraqi forces in the area, U.S. troops raided Kassim Janabi's home. Although members of the same, large tribe, the two men are not directly related.

    Entering the home after the raid, Omar Janabi said, he found the husband, wife and 7-year-old girl in one room. All had been shot dead, he said. The 15-year-old girl lay in another room, with her dress pushed up around her neck, Janabi said. A fire had been set in the room, burning a pillow and the girl's hair, he said.

    The satellite channel Al-Jazeera gave wide coverage to the alleged rape-slaying, which threatens to stoke public anger in the wake of a series of other cases of U.S. troops allegedly killing and abusing Iraqi civilians.

    An Iraqi human rights activist in Amman, Jordan, pointed to other abuse allegations, in the western Iraqi town of Haditha, and called for international intervention. "What happened in Mahmoudiya and Haditha are extreme violations of human rights. We call on the international community to intervene immediately," Mohammed al-Shekhli, head of the Transitional Justice Studies Center, said in an interview with the pan-Arab satellite station.

    If convicted of premeditated murder, the soldiers could receive a death sentence under U.S. military law.
  20. Blogger Bissa posted at 1:06 AM, July 05, 2006  
    if he didn\'t repeat it much, does that make it real?
  21. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 7:48 AM, July 05, 2006  
    They rape and murder young girls and violate everything. (AMERICA)

    Severed pig's head thrown into mosque during prayer session
    July 4, 2006

    LEWISTON, Maine --A group of Muslim men praying at a Lewiston mosque were thrown for a jolt when somebody threw a severed pig's head into the mosque. Police arrested a man on Tuesday who said he thought it was a joke.

    A frozen pig's head slightly larger than a basketball was rolled into the Lewiston Auburn Islamic Center on Lisbon Street at about 10:15 p.m. Monday, witnesses told the Sun Journal of Lewiston.

    Pigs are considered unclean by Muslims, who are barred from eating pork, and the act was viewed as a deliberate insult upon the religion.

    "We cannot eat it. We cannot even sit next to someone who is eating it," said a man who identified himself as Omar S.

    When the incident occurred, about 40 men were bowed down as part of their prayer ritual. When the pig's head rolled in, the men got up and ran outside but were unable to locate anyone. None of the men were hit by the animal head.

    Lewiston police bagged the head as evidence and took it to the police station, witnesses said. Police Lt. Mark Watson said the head was then disposed of.

    Brent Matthews, 33, of Lewiston, came to the police department on Tuesday, told a detective he had thrown the head and was charged with desecration of a church, a misdemeanor. The charge is considered a hate-bias crime, so Matthews' case will be referred to the Attorney General's office for further investigation, Lt. Don Mailhot said.

    Matthews, who was out on bail, "admitted to doing it," Mailhot said. "He thought it was funny; it was going to be a big joke. The police department doesn't anything like that lightly."
  22. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 8:38 PM, July 06, 2006  
    Bismillah:

    The following fatwa on contraception shows that there was in fact contraception items during the time of the Prophet Muhammad Ibn Abdullah (Peace Blessings Upon Him) and that zina is zina with condoms or not.--Allah is the Knower
    ___________________________________

    CONTRACEPTION

    Reversible
    Chemical - the pill which is taken orally spermicidal jellies used locally. Mechanical - use of condom intra-uterine device Physical - coitus interruptus rhythm method Permanent - sterilization operation - tubal ligations - vasectomies.

    Question 1
    Is the Practice of contraception allowed in Islam? If so, under what circumstances?

    Answer
    Contraception is permissible on a limited scale for valid reasons - reasons considered by the Shariáh to be valid. The circumstances which will permit reversible and permanent contraception differ.

    REVERSIBLE CONTRACEPTION
    Among the reasons accepted by the Shariáh as valid for practising reversible contraception are:
    (A) Physical weakness.
    (B) Sickness.
    (C) The wife maintaining her beauty or figure for the sake of her husband.
    (D) The couple being on a journey or in a distant land.
    (E) Adverse political conditions, e.g. children are forcibly separated from their parents as is advocated by communism; etc.
    (F) The couple decide to separate in the near future.
    (G) The wife is an immoral person.

    There are valid grounds for practising reversible contraception. Poverty or the fear of poverty are not valid reasons for contraception. It is not permissible to practice contraception on account of a fear of not being able to provide for a large family. Such a fear is an attribute of non-Muslims. According to the Qurãn Shareef: 'There is not a living creature, but its sustenance is the responsibility of Allah.'

    Similarly desire to curb sexual desire which may stem out of piety is not a lawful ground for contraception. If practised for any reason which is unlawful in Islam, then contraception will likewise be unlawful, e.g. for indulgence in illicit sex.

    PERMANENT CONTRACEPTION
    Permanent contraception is permissible only if the woman's life is in danger or her health is seriously threatened.

    and Allah Ta'ala Knows Best

    Mufti Ebrahim Desai
    Jumatul Ulema South Africa
    (taken from "Ask the Imam" web page}
  23. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 7:40 AM, July 07, 2006  
    I am surprised that no one has commented on the pain of lost love. It hurts. Either a realist or a cynic--take your pick--, I don't believe in the idea of one true love. I have had many great loves in my life. I have healed from great hurt--with one notable exception.
    Saudi Eve, you should too. Just don't let what happened prevent you from giving your heart again.
  24. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 8:01 PM, July 07, 2006  
    mr gq/Omar,
    Tsk..tsk..tsk! Young man mind your manners! I am absolutely sure that you are a very immature 20 something, who should have learned from his parents that you DO NOT gratuitously insult people who do not share your set of beliefs. I truly wonder what your mother would say if she read your comments on this blog? My guess is that she would not be amused...
    As to your moving to KSA, I regret to tell you that the 'Magic Kingdom' does not accept ANY immigrants. That you had the fortune, or as you might qualify it: the misfortune, to be born and bred in the good USA will actually be a real strike against you. So, if I were in your thobe, I would make amends before you get to meet the wrong end of a kafir's tolerance. Mine has been sorely tested by your terrible attitude and impolite ways.
  25. Blogger Nakia posted at 7:29 PM, July 08, 2006  
    Eve, habibti, you should have been wary of anyone who tells you that the most love you get in your life, will come from them. He was trying to wear you down, and apparently, it worked. Insha'Allah, you will be loved far better than that.
  26. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 2:59 AM, July 09, 2006  
    Eve, ya salaam.
    The nature of your posts is almost heartbreaking. You are touching lives all over the world with your beautiful and poetic words.
    And it breaks my heart to see so many people turning the comment section of your page into a place to vent religious hatred.
    Remain strong, and know that there are people in the world who have never met you, but still love you.
  27. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 11:20 PM, July 09, 2006  
    Post again, Evie. I love the honesty of your writing.
  28. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 4:51 PM, July 10, 2006  
    mr gq/Omar
    Should this 'clever' plan of your involve marrying a Saudi woman, again dear boy, this will not allow you to move there: only native Saudis can sometimes marry other Arabs(and only Arabs). But it may be pointed out that these are either very well-connected people (meaning KSA high officials), or those acquiring second or third wives...
    Now if you have any idea of slipping illegaly into KSA, I wish you miraculous luck! Saudi Security Forces do look to kindly on illegals traipsing around the Kingdom. Wisedom unfortunately is not inate in people, it comes through hard won experiences and much reflection; from your immaturity bordering on flippancy, I predict you will need a good amount of both to lead a good productive happy life.
    One thing that I am sure of, and this I am certain I share with your mother, is the dread thought your naïve enthusiasm might get yourself in real big trouble!... So please concentrate on becoming a better more empathetic human being instead of dreaming up wild nonsensical schemes.
    I bid you peace, knowing that you are just a youngster with the boundless energy and fire of youth.
    Asalaamu Alaikum!
  29. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 4:53 PM, July 10, 2006  
    Sorry Omar/mr gq,
    The anonymous was me! By the way how do you saqure your handle "mr gq" with muslim fundamentalist views?????
  30. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 7:28 PM, July 11, 2006  
    You've made me weep with your writing all the way in this foggy and dark city of San Francisco, CA.
  31. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 5:21 PM, July 13, 2006  
    HAHA! Where did she go? Did she get irritated by all of you people using her blog to squabble? She started a new blog to get her privacy back.HAHA!
  32. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 10:10 PM, July 13, 2006  
    lol@haha's
  33. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 6:22 PM, July 14, 2006  
    Where did you go? I miss your writing! Come back

    WE WANT MORE! WE WANT MORE!
  34. Blogger Honey™ posted at 4:33 PM, July 15, 2006  
    dont be sad ,,
    im sure that alot of ppl loves you :)
  35. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 6:41 PM, July 15, 2006  
    Eve -- I hope you are not in Lebanon, and if you are, you are soon safely out.

    Safe travels, where ever you are!
  36. Blogger Jewaira posted at 4:47 PM, July 16, 2006  
    SaudiEve,
    Hope all is well with you.
  37. Anonymous Anonymous posted at 6:29 AM, July 18, 2006  
    Eeeeeeeevieeeeeee- come back!

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