The oll "why do ya blog?" question
I’ve always been kind of a private person. I don’t befriend people easily. Although people always seem to just wanna confine in me and tell me their whole life stories like I’m their best friend soon after meeting me!, yet I don’t open up easily. To me, it takes time to open up, I must first make sure of one’s openness and discreteness before I talk. I am not picky or anything, but one thing I cannot take … judgmental people! Being an analytical philosophical observer that believes everything in this world is “relative”, and thus is subject to further interpretation and speculation (nisbe) I need a non-judgmental listener.
Having said that, I must also add that six years ago I –out of a sudden- found myself friend-less… my true friends… the close ones I could talk to, reach out for in time of need, and share feelings of happiness and sadness with were no more. Some moved to far away countries never to come back again, some chose the no coming back turn from friends to lovers, some went religious (Saudi style! Which doesn’t tolerate speculators like me), some … etc.
I do have friends now, but they are what I’d categorize as semi-friends .. They could never fully get me or feel me… nor could they rely on me as a friend… they are –all- decades older than me, they worry about their grandchildren while I’m a twenty-something single gal with worries like “does true love really exist?” or “when is it time to get physical with a new lover?” , they work hard to pay their debts while I work too but my daddy still pays for my vacations/cars/…...
In conclusion, and to answer the question every blogger eventually must ask himself; I blog because my blog is my friend.
I just hope that this friend isn’t one of those semi-friends that never fully get me ;-)
Posted by SaudiEve at 11:09 PM