I write rubbish, and my pharmacophobia
….do you know who eats alone? Only vultures do. Humans eat with other humans…. . Since you were gone, my life-long companion, I … I eat alone.
Since you were gone my one true friend … I became friendless ….. I made a blog to talk to strangers on.
Our friend, Mrs. A, called me today. She gave me the headache you always said her calls give … but for another reason … she did what I dreaded and avoided for weeks…. she asked me about you….
I stopped listening to Rachmaninoff … since you -my only true equal- were gone …. I can’t read, and I write rubbish.
Since you were gone -my day and night nurse, I go to my hospital appointments alone…. I hear good news….. alone ….. I have to explain to strangers my episodes of pharmacophobia ……. I have to explain…. while almost going thru one……. Since you were gone I buy the medicine alone, I agonize whether to take it or not to for hours and hours ….alone , since you were gone, I don’t take any of my medications cause I fear going thru a panic-attack alone, I decide to seek help from a professional psychiatrist but then I decide not …. Cause I don’t wanna go alone.
P.S.: Pharmacophobia- Fear of taking medicine, or drugs.
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